Linnea Ashley on November 30th, 2005

it is the only tulane shirt i own. a gift from someone even before i enrolled in school…a gentle nudging in the public health direction. that’s neither here nor there…the point is that i was wearing jeans and a tulane school of public health t-shirt. green. simple. unrelated to sports.as i walked toward my gate […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 25th, 2005

i am tired these days. given the option, sleep is a beautiful thing for me…something that signals the end of a long day of doing and thinking. signals a chance to recharge for whatever the next day has to throw at me. but in the last few months sleep has been less about recharging and […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 24th, 2005

home is getting more and more ambiguous for me. not because i’m currently displaced, but because what or where i consider home has shifted over the years and not true replacement has taken hold.when i was in college home was easily my folk’s house. houston. that was where my stuff was…where i went for holidays. […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 23rd, 2005

i’d like to blame the feeling i have on anyone but myself. my sense of otherness…my sense that i need to decide what i want with my life this very instant. i’d like to blame the sincerely curious questions and those that ask them ,for the feeling of dis-ease that overtakes me when i try […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 22nd, 2005

i find it insulting to make rules and then to change the rules you make because they don’t have your desired results. when i was younger my parents always made sure that i understood that even if they gave me a chance to express my opinions on something that they ultimately had the last word […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 19th, 2005

i like cats. more than dogs. a lot more than dogs. cats are independent. some see this as moody, because a dangling piece of fish doesn´t sway their affections. but i see it as sincerity. if they don´t like you no amount of kibbles and bits or meow mix will change their mind. determined. yeah…i […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 14th, 2005

we had an american couple last week who took light packing to a whole other place. they wore the same clothes everyday. appartently they stank beyond stinking. more pronounced against the backdrops of guatemalens who bathe theree times a day in the cooler season…klike now…and 6 or 7 times a day in the real heat.i […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 12th, 2005

it is so strange to go from being the only black face…fuzzy hair and my tone of skin to being still the only fuzzy hair and my tone of skin but in the midst of folks that back home i would consider ¨black like me¨and for the most part would consider me the same. here, […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 10th, 2005

it is the rainy season here. lest the firt two weeks fooled me, the sky is mourning for some unknown thing…or maybe rejoicing in that soul wrenching way the human body takes liberties with on rare occasions. either way, the sky opened up this afternoon and poured out all she had onto the lake and […]

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Linnea Ashley on November 5th, 2005

more than i thought about although i don´t know why. when you visit ruins all there really is to do is walk and look and talk and walk some more. and that´s what i did today. tikal…the great mayan ruins. and they are impressive…this morning we set out at 5am, the sun still slumbering under […]

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